i was making lunch today, seemed pretty normal. lunch. make it often. well, today was different. much different.
the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and I know i'll never be the same.
He lifted my head. literally. i felt lighter, immediately. i felt a physical lifting. THEN-my perspective of self and my future completely shifted.
It rushed in like an incredible wave. surrounded me. the tears came. Revelation.
i know i'm called to greatness. this is not a pompous statement. this is not self centered. this is not rude of me to declare. i'm awesome. ;) i am declaring this because the Lord, my creator, made me.it would be pride if I made me. but i didn't. HE DID. i praise him, because he is perfect. He made me to do things that only I CAN DO. no one else. how dare I constantly declare that what he made is "unworthy", "not capable", "not equipped". how dare I listen to these lies. I AM worthy. FULLY CAPABLE. HE HAS EQUIPPED ME!
i'm beginning to remember dreams of my heart. that i've had for many years. That i've pushed away. i know i've lived a life of watching others doing the very things i wish i could do and i immediately tell myself "that will never happen for you", "you can love it, enjoy it, even be able to give people good advice in these areas...but... you won't be the forerunner in them."
are you kidding me? i've told myself that? NO. these are lies.
today, in the kitchen, making lunch--I literally stood there and went "YES. Yes. YES." THIS IS ME! i can do this!
i found myself thinking. holy crap, your dreams are coming true. i'm exuding joy. i can't help it. it bubbles to the surface when i least expect it. i just smile or laugh out of nowhere. i start to think and see endless possibilities and my spirit says "this is it. you're finally you. you've finally healed. you've finally accepted his love. you've finally hungered after the right things. you believe. finally."
HE BRINGS RESTORATION. HE TAKES MY MOURNING AND TURNS IT INTO DANCING.
during worship at Bethel, i feel my body responding to his love. my arms move my whole body engulfed in the whirlwind of his spirit. those of you who know me--dance and grace may not be the first words you would use to describe me. but in HIS SPIRIT-my body just does things I could never imagine. i feel a grace and i want to use my entire being to worship him. that has always been in my heart and in my mind wished that it could be me--the difference--i now declare that it is me! and i can do it!! i'm engaging in the truths of life.
i sit here even now and think:
" i can be loved. i can. wow. me. I-CAN-BE-LOVED!"
i'm actually looking forward to it. i don't have to convince myself. i don't have to make excuses or be tortured by past decisions concerning love. I KNOW REAL LOVE.
i'm learning how to rest. to take time for myself.
i've taken EVERY SINGLE LIE from the enemy, from 'mentors', 'well-meaning people', those who may just not 'get me' , those i may even 'love, ect and trampled them! Iiam not living under that EVER again.
if it's not edifiying, it's not Gospel. i live Gospel and Gospel alone.
The Lord has prophesied so much over me these last 2 years and it's all coming to be. ALL OF IT. I'm dreaming again. DIFFERENCE-I believe it this time. I literally can not contain the joy inside of me as I think of my future! I have all confidence that this is the year. I've been catapulted into my destiny. Not a single thing is going to hold me back.
The missing piece has come to complete me.
As I stand in a church, that teaches you how to think, not WHAT to think. A church, that empowers and always speaks life. A church that takes all of the questions I've ever had and puts into perspective that finally makes sense. Questions i've asked for years and no one had the answers. I'm shocked. This is christianity. NOT RELIGION. No controlling. No condemnation. No rejection. EMPOWERMENT! heal the broken hearted, heal the blind, set captives free!
I have learned so much in one week here. I CAN NOT IMAGINE WHAT 9 MONTHS WILL SHOW ME!
i've found a love greater than life itself!
i'm in love. yeah, you heard me. in love.
thank you Lord.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
additional chapter-i'm writing a book ;)
My fabulous Family and Friends,
'There are realities created when we speak what God is saying. When we speak, the Holy Spirit himself is released into the environment and brings life. We release his Glory, there is a shifting in the atmosphere and things happen. Any obstacle to the will of God must be dealt with. What other purpose would their be to removing mountains with your voice? When you have an obstacle to divine destiny, you don't march around it, you SPEAK TO IT. The authority of God is in the voice, it's in his word. It's in what he is SAYING! Sometimes the Lord calls us to be active in our prayers. We find it easier to pray and then blame God for the outcome, instead of taking risks and facing possible failure . Many people pray in the place of radical obedience. When Jesus slept in the middle of the storm, the disciples woke him to have him take care of the storm, "their obstacle" to what he declared to be their destiny. That's not humility, it's not humility to say "Jesus come and take care of this storm", it's abandoning personal responsibility. I am not mentored by him to call upon him and have him cater to me, but to reign with. Not independent of, not contrary to-but because of! To reign with him--kingdom perspective. Kingly position, in the kingdom is the favor to serve more effectively in service. It's not a position of domination. It's not going over but coming under. A king's role is to empower to be more effective.
The lord shows us over and over that the kingdom is at hand, but it's a step beyond convenient.We speak to the demon, we speak against the disease, we command the fig tree to die. You talk to it-- Jesus models how this works. It's a measure of sacrifice. What you need in life will be brought to you, but what you desire (that the Lord has put in the secret place of your heart), you will have to go get!
This kingdom perspective of what God is modeling to his people is displayed perfectly in the story of when Jesus comes to the fig tree, out of season, and there is no fruit so he cursed it. HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE RIGHT TO REQUIRE FRUIT THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE FROM OUR LIVES! He has grafted us into a system where the impossible is required from our lives.
We are drafted into an army who's soul assignment is to invade the 'country' called IMPOSSIBLE. It is our 'bread' it is who we are by nature!'
Now, I wish I could take credit for the above words. However, it is a paraphrased/my interpretation of a sermon of Bill Johnson's. SPEAKING OF BILL JOHNSON---as most of you know, but if you don't..... IN ONE WEEK, I AM HEADED TO BETHEL SCHOOL OF SUPERNATURAL MINISTRY in REDDING, CA!!!
The Lord has presented me a season to rest in HIS presence, HIS promises, spend endless hours with him and learn from his word, apply HIS ways and be stretched, refined, challenged and sent out to serve! I can not believe I've been given this honor. If you know me at all, I am a person who works 3 jobs and is always with people---filling each moment and very much trying to 'control' my life. In the last 6 months, the Lord has taken me on an incredible journey of healing and pulling close to him. I've felt his tangible presences and I HUNGER FOR MORE! I believe in his healing power and i've seen people healed by his power. I literally believe that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH CHRIST! I fell in love with the Lord and I begged him for more time with him. I felt his presence wash over me and ask me to spend that time with him. I realized that HE wants to be with me, more than I could ever desire to be with him. I was floored and sobbed at the thought. For days, I felt the Lord ask me to come to him over and over. Many other divine things happened and a major thing happened---the Lord revealed that this 'season' of intense worship of HIM and face-on-the floor time with him---would happen at BETHEL!!! I was worried---Lord, I want this so much--but I can not leave Thailand. I can not leave NightLight. However, the Lord quickly showed me how he was going to combine the both, continue my relationship with NightLight. I will be attending Bethel and taking an advocacy role in the US promoting NL with the long term goal of connecting Bethel and Nightlight. One of the ways being, bringing prayer teams from Bethel to NightLight 2 or 3 times a year and intercessery prayer at Bethel for NightLight and the issues of Human trafficking. SO the Lord was clear. 'I am in control and I have a plan.... if I was going to live out the plans I have for you---this is your time to be with ME and be equipped for the call I have given you!'
I AM SO THRILLED. I have never been given--well, I have never accepted--this season from the Lord before. A season of rest. A season of complete dependancy. I season to learn learn, grow , grow and grow in the LOVE of the Lord. I'm relieved and humbled and I will cherish this season!!!!
I love you all dearly and you have been my lifeline. I can not thank you enough for your support. I am asking for your continued support. If the Lord lays on your heart to support me during this season, I would be honored to covenant with you. I will be in full time school and prophetic ministry and in this time of rest, I will not be working.
I leave in one week-September 11th and The Point is to Serve is still accepting donations for me; I have broken my expenses down below:
The Point is to Serve
PO Box 91416
Sioux Falls, SD 57109-1416
United States of America
$3600 for ONE YEAR TUITION
$1150 a month
-$400 rent
-$300 student loan
-$50 cell phone
-$200 food
$100 toiletries/household needs
$100 ministry needs
Blessings to you all! The Lord is doing a new thing and I pray abundance for you all!
love you
Lyndsey
'There are realities created when we speak what God is saying. When we speak, the Holy Spirit himself is released into the environment and brings life. We release his Glory, there is a shifting in the atmosphere and things happen. Any obstacle to the will of God must be dealt with. What other purpose would their be to removing mountains with your voice? When you have an obstacle to divine destiny, you don't march around it, you SPEAK TO IT. The authority of God is in the voice, it's in his word. It's in what he is SAYING! Sometimes the Lord calls us to be active in our prayers. We find it easier to pray and then blame God for the outcome, instead of taking risks and facing possible failure . Many people pray in the place of radical obedience. When Jesus slept in the middle of the storm, the disciples woke him to have him take care of the storm, "their obstacle" to what he declared to be their destiny. That's not humility, it's not humility to say "Jesus come and take care of this storm", it's abandoning personal responsibility. I am not mentored by him to call upon him and have him cater to me, but to reign with. Not independent of, not contrary to-but because of! To reign with him--kingdom perspective. Kingly position, in the kingdom is the favor to serve more effectively in service. It's not a position of domination. It's not going over but coming under. A king's role is to empower to be more effective.
The lord shows us over and over that the kingdom is at hand, but it's a step beyond convenient.We speak to the demon, we speak against the disease, we command the fig tree to die. You talk to it-- Jesus models how this works. It's a measure of sacrifice. What you need in life will be brought to you, but what you desire (that the Lord has put in the secret place of your heart), you will have to go get!
This kingdom perspective of what God is modeling to his people is displayed perfectly in the story of when Jesus comes to the fig tree, out of season, and there is no fruit so he cursed it. HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE RIGHT TO REQUIRE FRUIT THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE FROM OUR LIVES! He has grafted us into a system where the impossible is required from our lives.
We are drafted into an army who's soul assignment is to invade the 'country' called IMPOSSIBLE. It is our 'bread' it is who we are by nature!'
Now, I wish I could take credit for the above words. However, it is a paraphrased/my interpretation of a sermon of Bill Johnson's. SPEAKING OF BILL JOHNSON---as most of you know, but if you don't..... IN ONE WEEK, I AM HEADED TO BETHEL SCHOOL OF SUPERNATURAL MINISTRY in REDDING, CA!!!
The Lord has presented me a season to rest in HIS presence, HIS promises, spend endless hours with him and learn from his word, apply HIS ways and be stretched, refined, challenged and sent out to serve! I can not believe I've been given this honor. If you know me at all, I am a person who works 3 jobs and is always with people---filling each moment and very much trying to 'control' my life. In the last 6 months, the Lord has taken me on an incredible journey of healing and pulling close to him. I've felt his tangible presences and I HUNGER FOR MORE! I believe in his healing power and i've seen people healed by his power. I literally believe that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH CHRIST! I fell in love with the Lord and I begged him for more time with him. I felt his presence wash over me and ask me to spend that time with him. I realized that HE wants to be with me, more than I could ever desire to be with him. I was floored and sobbed at the thought. For days, I felt the Lord ask me to come to him over and over. Many other divine things happened and a major thing happened---the Lord revealed that this 'season' of intense worship of HIM and face-on-the floor time with him---would happen at BETHEL!!! I was worried---Lord, I want this so much--but I can not leave Thailand. I can not leave NightLight. However, the Lord quickly showed me how he was going to combine the both, continue my relationship with NightLight. I will be attending Bethel and taking an advocacy role in the US promoting NL with the long term goal of connecting Bethel and Nightlight. One of the ways being, bringing prayer teams from Bethel to NightLight 2 or 3 times a year and intercessery prayer at Bethel for NightLight and the issues of Human trafficking. SO the Lord was clear. 'I am in control and I have a plan.... if I was going to live out the plans I have for you---this is your time to be with ME and be equipped for the call I have given you!'
I AM SO THRILLED. I have never been given--well, I have never accepted--this season from the Lord before. A season of rest. A season of complete dependancy. I season to learn learn, grow , grow and grow in the LOVE of the Lord. I'm relieved and humbled and I will cherish this season!!!!
I love you all dearly and you have been my lifeline. I can not thank you enough for your support. I am asking for your continued support. If the Lord lays on your heart to support me during this season, I would be honored to covenant with you. I will be in full time school and prophetic ministry and in this time of rest, I will not be working.
I leave in one week-September 11th and The Point is to Serve is still accepting donations for me; I have broken my expenses down below:
The Point is to Serve
PO Box 91416
Sioux Falls, SD 57109-1416
United States of America
$3600 for ONE YEAR TUITION
$1150 a month
-$400 rent
-$300 student loan
-$50 cell phone
-$200 food
$100 toiletries/household needs
$100 ministry needs
Blessings to you all! The Lord is doing a new thing and I pray abundance for you all!
love you
Lyndsey
Monday, April 27, 2009
A new life--Redeemed!
PRAISE GOD!
Jar came to NightLight today!!!! She didn't come to morning worship... she didn't come by lunch.., but she came! We had no way of contacting her--she does not have a phone and we did not know exactly where she was living. Thank you all for your prayers--I know that prayer requests were sent all over the world for Jar and GOD HEARD THEM!!!!!
I am sure I missed some things in the translation---but I will forward on what Annie writes at a later time.Here's what I know:The very first night that Jar went to the bars to work, she was walking up the stairs of the Nana Entertainment plaza.... a dark, wet, sticky and cold back staircase to work.... at the top of the stairs she saw a VERY TALL FIGURE, dressed all in white, holding out his hand! She just stared, she did not know if it was a ghost. But, she thought to herself, in buddhism, all the ghosts and demons are dark/black and scary. This figure had light all around and she was not scared. About a half hour later, Annie came to the bar, Jar was working at and spoke with her!!!!!!
The first encounter, I forwarded to you last week; a recap is---Jar talked with Annie that night, explained that it was her first night in the bar and her mom had cancer. She explained that her mom was dying--only had 2 weeks to live. Jar had come to the bar to get money for chemo. Annie asked her why her mom would do chemo with only 2 weeks to live and Jar explained "she is the only one I have left. When she's gone, I will have noone." Annie explained to Jar about NightLight--they talked for the rest of the time Annie was in the bar. Jar did not take a customer that night--she was spared. Jar left the bar and arrived at the hospital at 2:00AM. Her mom had died at 1:30AM that night--the night she met annie and GOD. Jar went to the drug store and bought a bottle of medicine to drink that night and follow her mother. Jar fell asleep before drinking the medicine--she had been crying---and God sent her an image of Annie's face and told her to go see Annie. Jar called Annie that afternoon and Annie met with her. Long story short, Jar and Annie talked, Jar came in to talk about working at NightLight and decided to meet us to move in with me on Sunday. Jar did not show up.
We sent out a request for intercession and this is what happened: On Sunday, Jar was mixed up on the location for NightLight church. She came to NightLight--which is a few streets away from the church site. Jar then went to Jai Samon church, that is down the street --where we have morning worship. We of course, were not their either. So, Jar asked the guards if she could just go in and sit in the sanctuary. They said sure and Jar went up to the cross and began to talk to the cross. She had no idea what to do, but she just started talking. She felt like someone came beside her and wrapped their arms around her---she leaned against them!!!! She heard a sweet voice, neither female nor male speak to her. They told her that her life has value and that she is now on the right path. To just keep walking and good things will be shown to her. She felt all of her depression and sorrows get wrapped up and thrown away! She felt light and happy! She laughed!!! She was afraid that the guards would think she was crazy! haha, welcome to the life of a Spirit filled Christian!!!!! Jar felt the Angels, saw the Angels, felt the Holy Spirit----thank you for you faithful prayers!
When she finally came in and told us this---Annie and Pon took her into the prayer room. I was at my desk and Annie comes running in "lyndsey! Jar is here and about to accept Christ!" I ran into the prayer room and see this precious girl that I had ferverntly prayed for sitting in the chair. I immediately tear up, sit down beside her and listen to her journey. Pii Pon was explaining who Christ is and explaining to Jar all of things she has felt in the last week. Sharing with Jar the realities about how God values he life so much that he sent his son and his angels to protect and guide her. JAR ACCEPTED CHRIST!!!! She knew Christ intimately already! I love God! I do! She didn't need years of feeling Jesus to be convinced. She didn't need to be good enough, or do enough good things. She acknowledge the change she felt and the warmth the Holy Spirit brought to her and she wanted Jesus now!!! I watched jar accept Christ, I saw the Holy Spirit fall on her! Selffishly, I sat and in my heart, screamed thank you Lord for allowing me to see your daughter come home!!!!!
Jar also was walking down the street and ran into an old boss of her mothers. Jar explained her situation and the boss offered Jar a free room (she has to pay electricity and water) at the hotel. Only women live there and it is safe!!! GOD HAS FULLY PROVIDED FOR HER NEEDS! Jar will start with us next week at NightLight. FOOD, SHELTER, FAMILY, FRIENDS, LOVE and a new born-again life!!!!!!!!!
OH I LOVE GOD!!!! Khap Khun Prajaew!!!! (Thank you God!) If you can't tell, my Spirit is filled and flowing over! I love this place, I love God and I never ever want to leave his presence! May you be blessed by this story and desire to know the full heart of God!
Love you
lynds
Jar came to NightLight today!!!! She didn't come to morning worship... she didn't come by lunch.., but she came! We had no way of contacting her--she does not have a phone and we did not know exactly where she was living. Thank you all for your prayers--I know that prayer requests were sent all over the world for Jar and GOD HEARD THEM!!!!!
I am sure I missed some things in the translation---but I will forward on what Annie writes at a later time.Here's what I know:The very first night that Jar went to the bars to work, she was walking up the stairs of the Nana Entertainment plaza.... a dark, wet, sticky and cold back staircase to work.... at the top of the stairs she saw a VERY TALL FIGURE, dressed all in white, holding out his hand! She just stared, she did not know if it was a ghost. But, she thought to herself, in buddhism, all the ghosts and demons are dark/black and scary. This figure had light all around and she was not scared. About a half hour later, Annie came to the bar, Jar was working at and spoke with her!!!!!!
The first encounter, I forwarded to you last week; a recap is---Jar talked with Annie that night, explained that it was her first night in the bar and her mom had cancer. She explained that her mom was dying--only had 2 weeks to live. Jar had come to the bar to get money for chemo. Annie asked her why her mom would do chemo with only 2 weeks to live and Jar explained "she is the only one I have left. When she's gone, I will have noone." Annie explained to Jar about NightLight--they talked for the rest of the time Annie was in the bar. Jar did not take a customer that night--she was spared. Jar left the bar and arrived at the hospital at 2:00AM. Her mom had died at 1:30AM that night--the night she met annie and GOD. Jar went to the drug store and bought a bottle of medicine to drink that night and follow her mother. Jar fell asleep before drinking the medicine--she had been crying---and God sent her an image of Annie's face and told her to go see Annie. Jar called Annie that afternoon and Annie met with her. Long story short, Jar and Annie talked, Jar came in to talk about working at NightLight and decided to meet us to move in with me on Sunday. Jar did not show up.
We sent out a request for intercession and this is what happened: On Sunday, Jar was mixed up on the location for NightLight church. She came to NightLight--which is a few streets away from the church site. Jar then went to Jai Samon church, that is down the street --where we have morning worship. We of course, were not their either. So, Jar asked the guards if she could just go in and sit in the sanctuary. They said sure and Jar went up to the cross and began to talk to the cross. She had no idea what to do, but she just started talking. She felt like someone came beside her and wrapped their arms around her---she leaned against them!!!! She heard a sweet voice, neither female nor male speak to her. They told her that her life has value and that she is now on the right path. To just keep walking and good things will be shown to her. She felt all of her depression and sorrows get wrapped up and thrown away! She felt light and happy! She laughed!!! She was afraid that the guards would think she was crazy! haha, welcome to the life of a Spirit filled Christian!!!!! Jar felt the Angels, saw the Angels, felt the Holy Spirit----thank you for you faithful prayers!
When she finally came in and told us this---Annie and Pon took her into the prayer room. I was at my desk and Annie comes running in "lyndsey! Jar is here and about to accept Christ!" I ran into the prayer room and see this precious girl that I had ferverntly prayed for sitting in the chair. I immediately tear up, sit down beside her and listen to her journey. Pii Pon was explaining who Christ is and explaining to Jar all of things she has felt in the last week. Sharing with Jar the realities about how God values he life so much that he sent his son and his angels to protect and guide her. JAR ACCEPTED CHRIST!!!! She knew Christ intimately already! I love God! I do! She didn't need years of feeling Jesus to be convinced. She didn't need to be good enough, or do enough good things. She acknowledge the change she felt and the warmth the Holy Spirit brought to her and she wanted Jesus now!!! I watched jar accept Christ, I saw the Holy Spirit fall on her! Selffishly, I sat and in my heart, screamed thank you Lord for allowing me to see your daughter come home!!!!!
Jar also was walking down the street and ran into an old boss of her mothers. Jar explained her situation and the boss offered Jar a free room (she has to pay electricity and water) at the hotel. Only women live there and it is safe!!! GOD HAS FULLY PROVIDED FOR HER NEEDS! Jar will start with us next week at NightLight. FOOD, SHELTER, FAMILY, FRIENDS, LOVE and a new born-again life!!!!!!!!!
OH I LOVE GOD!!!! Khap Khun Prajaew!!!! (Thank you God!) If you can't tell, my Spirit is filled and flowing over! I love this place, I love God and I never ever want to leave his presence! May you be blessed by this story and desire to know the full heart of God!
Love you
lynds
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Covenant
Precious friends and family,
I have bombarded you with the amazing things happening here in bangkok! I have been on quite the journey and it is no where close to stopping! I am writing you now to ask you to join again with me in this covenant through your prayers, intercession, and monetary support. Through your faithfulness, I was able to spend time at home for 2 months with my needs met, receive a plane ticket, year visa, and two months living expenses covered! Thank you and Praise God!
I am now at the ,point where I have one months budget left in the bank and not sure how I am going to be able to stay longer. I must share with you that my commitment to NightLight is life long. yes, life long. I felt God tell me to have NightLight be the base of my mission work and that he will take me many places but here is my home. here is where he has asked me to walk the streets and radiate his Spirit. God has shown me his children over and over.. and he has ripped open the heavens above us. It has increased, even since my coming, the needs that God brings us each day. We have been in prayer and fasting--asking God to increase our authority. God has honored that and he has also increased my relationships here. God has given me specific long term dreams and goals and roles to reach for and fulfill here. I had no hesitation in saying YES LORD!!! God has set up meetings in the future of teams and friends coming to visit and be changed by this nation and to change this nation! I have opportunities to visit India, Africa and Australia in this coming year. To learn about trafficking in these areas, to network, to evangelize. At NightLight, prayer and deliverance ministry is my heart. I am in constant awe of how God is working through us to free these woman!
I am attending the Glory school in Pattaya May 10th-16th! Patricia King started it--the xtreme love team will be coming to do prophetic evangelism and I could not be more excited! I know that God has much in store for this time!
"God shall release an entire generation of people who live by his spirit and love the object of the Father's desire--His son. We shall behold wonders in Heaven and shall call them forth to attest to God's glory on earth. We shall start to move in the creative power of the Holy Spirit, imitating God: ..the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were. -Romans 4:17.
He instructed us to pray out of the same union that Jesus had with him and expect to see results. But to move with this kind of authority, we must first encounter His desire. we must operate in unity with His heart. A storehouse full of resources awaits those who live connected to the Father's heart. This is God's economy--to call foth what is not as though it were!
(Shawn Bolz-Key's to Heaven's Economy)
I believe too, that God has called my generation and at the climax, one generation would cry out for the fullness of God's plan to manifest on earth! God promised that the bride of Christ would cry out passionately--in agreement with the Holy Spirit--for Jesus to rend the Heavens and to come down in the fullness of his destiny and glean his reward. So, for me and my generation are echoing revelation 22:17, "THE SPIRIT AND THE BRIDE SAY, 'COME'!!!"
I am enclosing my monthly budget below and asking humbly that you would pledge monthy with me and make this covenant together:
Monthly Budget
$300 for rent
$400 total for student loan payments (2 loans)
$400 for food, toiletries, personal care, laundry
$200 for Thai language school per month (for 6 months)
$30 for cell phone and public transportation
$100 for ministry/outreach (2 times a week each month)
$70 Overseas Missionary Insurance/Health care needs
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$1500 TOTAL
If you would like to pledge, please send your donation to:
The Point is to Serve
PO Box 91416
Sioux Falls, SD 57109-1416
Memo Line: Lyndsey Christensen
Grace and Peace to you All! I love you!
Lyndsey
I have bombarded you with the amazing things happening here in bangkok! I have been on quite the journey and it is no where close to stopping! I am writing you now to ask you to join again with me in this covenant through your prayers, intercession, and monetary support. Through your faithfulness, I was able to spend time at home for 2 months with my needs met, receive a plane ticket, year visa, and two months living expenses covered! Thank you and Praise God!
I am now at the ,point where I have one months budget left in the bank and not sure how I am going to be able to stay longer. I must share with you that my commitment to NightLight is life long. yes, life long. I felt God tell me to have NightLight be the base of my mission work and that he will take me many places but here is my home. here is where he has asked me to walk the streets and radiate his Spirit. God has shown me his children over and over.. and he has ripped open the heavens above us. It has increased, even since my coming, the needs that God brings us each day. We have been in prayer and fasting--asking God to increase our authority. God has honored that and he has also increased my relationships here. God has given me specific long term dreams and goals and roles to reach for and fulfill here. I had no hesitation in saying YES LORD!!! God has set up meetings in the future of teams and friends coming to visit and be changed by this nation and to change this nation! I have opportunities to visit India, Africa and Australia in this coming year. To learn about trafficking in these areas, to network, to evangelize. At NightLight, prayer and deliverance ministry is my heart. I am in constant awe of how God is working through us to free these woman!
I am attending the Glory school in Pattaya May 10th-16th! Patricia King started it--the xtreme love team will be coming to do prophetic evangelism and I could not be more excited! I know that God has much in store for this time!
"God shall release an entire generation of people who live by his spirit and love the object of the Father's desire--His son. We shall behold wonders in Heaven and shall call them forth to attest to God's glory on earth. We shall start to move in the creative power of the Holy Spirit, imitating God: ..the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were. -Romans 4:17.
He instructed us to pray out of the same union that Jesus had with him and expect to see results. But to move with this kind of authority, we must first encounter His desire. we must operate in unity with His heart. A storehouse full of resources awaits those who live connected to the Father's heart. This is God's economy--to call foth what is not as though it were!
(Shawn Bolz-Key's to Heaven's Economy)
I believe too, that God has called my generation and at the climax, one generation would cry out for the fullness of God's plan to manifest on earth! God promised that the bride of Christ would cry out passionately--in agreement with the Holy Spirit--for Jesus to rend the Heavens and to come down in the fullness of his destiny and glean his reward. So, for me and my generation are echoing revelation 22:17, "THE SPIRIT AND THE BRIDE SAY, 'COME'!!!"
I am enclosing my monthly budget below and asking humbly that you would pledge monthy with me and make this covenant together:
Monthly Budget
$300 for rent
$400 total for student loan payments (2 loans)
$400 for food, toiletries, personal care, laundry
$200 for Thai language school per month (for 6 months)
$30 for cell phone and public transportation
$100 for ministry/outreach (2 times a week each month)
$70 Overseas Missionary Insurance/Health care needs
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$1500 TOTAL
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Memo Line: Lyndsey Christensen
Grace and Peace to you All! I love you!
Lyndsey
A night that only God could orchestrate
Sawadeekah tu khon! (hello everyone!)
On Friday, we had outreach. The evening was incredible. I could never have come close to imagining what God did in just one evening! We went into the Nana Entertainment plaza and entered into the bar. I have been talking with one woman in there for 6 months (except for the 2 months I was at home). Her name is Nok. She told me last Tuesday, that her sister had died. She was unable to go to the funeral because she had no money. Her sister had been taking care of her son. Nok had been working in the bars the past 6 months to get money for her sons education. He had just turned 5 and entered school. Now that her sister had passed, her son is living with her in BKK. It makes me wonder though, who is watching her son while she works? She has no family in BKK.She avoided my question, when I asked. She was still grieving her sisters death. I listened to her tell me how she had cried and cried when she found out. She sat beside me in her string bikini, with tears in her eyes. My mind was swirling with the grief I saw and the defeat she was describing. She had come the last 6 months, been away from her dying sister, her son and for what? She had sold her body to provide for her son and she has made little to no money in 6 months. Her sister is now gone and her parents are still expecting her to provide for them.
Songkran Water Festival is a much anticipated holiday in Thailand. Bangkok almost shuts down during this festival. The shops and vendors are shut down and the streets are filled with people throwing water in a huge water fight! BUT, the foreign men still demand the bars be open, the woman still be able to be bought. SO, the bars stay open. The woman are not allowed to leave. To participate in a festival that means so much to their heritage and culture. Nok told me that she could not go anywhere to celebrate.The bar owners would cut 1000 baht from her salary if she went. This adds sadness to her eyes as well, because most woman would go home to celebrate--she would have seen her sister one last time.
Nok has cried many times while we visit; explaining to me that she "no have customers". She has to take 10 customers a month. The maximum she has been taking is 3. For everyone customer that she does not get a month of the 10 quota, 600 Baht is cut from her salary. Of course, I'm glad that she doesn't have to take so many men. However, my heart breaks because I know that the pressure of that reality for her weighs her down. The invisible chains of debt bondage has kept her here for 6 months already--she has no sign of hope.
Nok pointed to the stage that is front of the door. She says "they are 16. no have school". She's explaining to me that the entire stage of girls are 16 yrs old. They have school break and come to work in the bars to be able to afford their school uniforms! This is SO messed up! In order to go to school, their parents have sent them to work in the bars to make money for their uniforms! Just as I am watching the girls, I see a man in his early thirties walk in. He has a duffle bag on his shoulder; it is obvious that he has a large camera in the bag. He sits on the stool by the stage and looks up the skirts of the young girls. he grabs one girls hand and she crouches beside him. Another server brings him a beer.. he doesn't acknowledge her.. I realize he didn't even order. They know him. They know him well. The girl agrees to come sit beside him when she is done dancing. He finds a seat. She finishes and goes to speak with him. He chugs his beer and takes her upstairs to a "short-time" room. I know this because, the man did not call a mamasaun over to pay the bar fee, the girl did not go change into her 'street clothes" to leave with him... they just left...and no one was alarmed. I watched everyone "turn a blind-eye". I'm sick... I know what's happening and I can do nothing. He's going to tape her. Child pornography. Nok sees my face and asks me if I'm ok. I tell her no--I know what he's doing. My heart feels sick. Nok puts her hand on my knee and squeezes. She's now consoling me... I looked at her and hugged her. She tells me she has to go dance and makes me promise to not leave before she is done.
On Friday, Nok was in a better mood. It saddens me because she is happier because there are more customers in the bar. however, She stayed with me the whole time I was in the bar. She didn't compete for the male customers. She snuggled up to me and talked with Amy and I. She laughed and told us that she was having a good night. She was still sad in her heart though she explained.. we asked her why and she said she missed her sister. We made small talk and then Nok excused herself to the restroom. She came back and asked if Amy and I would pray for her. We had prayed for her in the past, and were delighted to do so again. There is something SO amazing about praying in the bars. Girls watch, and wonder what you're doing. When we were finished the other girls ask Nok what was happening. Nok explains that we bless her and she feels warm. ;)
I long for Nok to leave the bars.. she says she is going to stay until the end of the year and then her parents have requested that she come home and physically take care of them. She says she can't wait , because it means she no longer has to work in the bars.
We leave, feeling already quite overwhelmed with the mercy of God... but God has MUCH MUCH more in store for us that evening.
We walked towards the Grace Hotel, where many trafficked woman hang out. It didn't take us long to run into 2 of the African women. One of them we have chatted with multiple times, the other I had met last Tuesday, but she was quite standoffish. She had just arrived and was not familiar with us. I am sure she wondered if she could trust us. This time, she looked very stoic and deeply sad. Annie sat down beside her and Amy had already begun to talk with her. She didn't look up but forcefully said "I'm ok, but I need a bible!" Most of the African women know we hand out bibles if they would like one and they always want one! Word travels fast that we have them. We often pray with the African women on the streets. They are Christians and pray together before they go out each evening. We all glanced at each other and smiled... Annie tells her that she felt God tell her to bring a bible with her, but she didn't obey. So, if she wanted one tonight, we'd make sure she got one. The African woman, simply states "I really need a Bible." We said alright and arranged to meet her in front of a Hotel not to far from NightLight. Amy noticed that her watch was still on Ugandan time... my heart sank as she changed it to meet us by 10:45. She was holding on to a bit of her home...
We began our trek back to NightLight to bet the Bible. We got two bibles and waited by the hotel for her. She didn't show up. So, we decided that we were not going to let this go easily. Amy and I crossed the street to look for her. There is an arabic community and African community in some of the sub-sois. Annie and the Swedish lady who was been joining us for outreach, stayed back in case she still came to the hotel. The swedish lady is new to bkk and is not a Christian. She felt strongly that she believes in the philosophy of NightLight and wanted to join our outreaches. Annie said it was ok as long as she joined us for our prayer time. She agreed but told Emily that she was afraid it would be hypocritical of her. None of us feel like that would be true, but we do believe that she needs to be a part of our prayer time for covering before we go out. She has been coming for a few weeks now and really enjoys the prayer time--she told me she finds it relaxing. She is comfortable at outreach and has been enjoying it. She is enthusiastic each week! I LOVE the way that God has arranged for her to be with us and is working on her heart too. I watch her soak it all in and come back for more.
So.. Amy and I come up empty handed and returned to annie and the swedish woman. we decided not to give up still--we felt strongly that we were supposed to find her. I ALWAYS go with the feeling.. just keep walking and looking.. God has a plan. We walked back through the arab-african neighborhood. As always, there were many children running barefoot through the streets, begging. one by one, they grab our hands and we walk and play with them for a moment. Amy decided to buy them orange juice, so we stop and chat, play and hug them for just a moment. I look around and have one of those surreal moments again "here I am, thai children in hand, surrounded by Arabic and African people, on the street of bangkok, many languages being spoken around me. I imagine the feet-- the "stories" and lives that have walked where I am, the lives the have crossed at this very point, the joy, the pain.. evil and good that are represented all around. my eyes fill with tears and I praise God for bringing me to this exact point and place in life. i beg him to radiate from me, to increase my wisdom and discernment in this place. I ask God what he wants me to do, what difference do you want me to make, is this it? it's pretty amazing--but I want more! I'm jolted back into reality as we are ready to continue our search for Marissa.
We rounded the corner and ran into 4 African women. We knew two of them. We asked if they new Marissa 'the new girl'. One said she did and would give her the bible. I gave the second one to Rita and she hugged it to her like I had just given her the most precious gift. The other two women wanted one and Annie promised to "bring a truckload" the next time!
We then did run into Marissa a ways down the street. we explained that they had her bible for her. Marissa was with yet, another African woman. She asked for one too. WOW, we did not bring enough. We arranged to meet her next Tuesday with more Bibles.
Continuing on--we ran into two more African woman. Annie knew Camilla and I knew Maria. Camilla has quite the presence and she has her big bottle of beer in hand and in a joking yet with much attitude way, she says "Where's my bible?! You said you'd bring me a Bible. Everyone else has one and I don't. I really need a Bible!" Annie tries to explain that she has not seen her in quite sometime and we ran out tonight. but if she wanted one, she could come with us back to NightLight and we would get her one. She was hesitant to walk that far (her feet already hurt because they have to walk all night in high heels looking for customers). I hear her say to Annie, "Well ok, if it's for God, I guess I can do it." While Camilla is figuring this all out, I am talking with Maria. Maria immediately hugged me and dropped in my arms. She wanted to be held--I'm in awe. She can barely stand. I was holding her up. I hug her with all I have and tell her I love her. She looks at me embarrassed and I ask her what's wrong. She tells me that while I was in America she had gone back to Uganda, but she returned to Bangkok. I tell her how sad that makes me that she had to come back. She tells me that her 5 CHILDREN need money to go to school and that this is her only hope. A woman in Uganda "sponsored" her return. So she "just" has to pay her off and make enough for her children's school this time. I didn't ask her how much she had to pay her "sponsor" but I know in the past, woman have payed off as much as $20,000.
We head back to Nightlight and I over hear Annie say, in Thai "it's ok, they are friends of ours." I look back at her confused. She later explains that a Thai vendor tried to stop her from going with "those women". OH, we must confuse everyone around us! I love it. I look back at the Swedish visitor to see if she's ok... we've already had quite the night! I see Annie laughing with her and asking her if she ever imagined she would be running around the streets of bangkok handing out Bibles! She exclaims, "never!"
We start down the street towards NightLight and I notice that Annie and Camille have stopped behind us. Camille is rushing to finish her beer and she sets against the wall. Later Annie said that Camille had stopped in her tracks and stated "i WILL NOT take beer to church!" She had stopped right before Jai samon church--where we have our morning worship--Camille knew it was a church and she refused to even walk on the grounds with her beer. Annie said it best "how funny that we are strict with ourselves about one sin, while blatantly participating in another."
We finally arrived at NightLight and Camille immediately fell into a chair and breathed a sigh of relief. Maria barely made it into a chair and you could see the worry on her mind. She didn't want to sit down, but she could barely stand. She was worried about not getting a customer that night. Her sister had called and told her more bad news and more needs for money. She asked me for water--I went to get some and Annie went to get the bibles. Camilla asked for 3 bibles total... she then asked for a marker and Amy handed her a pink pen. Camilla began to inscribe in the bibles "to...God Bless you.. These bibles are from NightLight..love Camilla." Camilla could not contain her happiness. She kept exclaiming "thank you, I am so happy! The word of God is so precious. More than anything. More than any amount of money!" She then began to tell us that she had a customer that "did bad things to her, he was a horrible man. evil." She began to tell us how one of her African clients had made her cut herself and him and drink the blood. She cringed at the memory and opened her Bible. She said that she loves Psalms. She reads Psalms 140-145 ALL the time. She said that when this man hurt her--she prayed psalms 140-145 for seven days. God would deal with him.
We continued to talk about Africa, and faith. Annie began to sing an African song--Camille then sang one in her language--a gospel song. She started to sing "God will make a way where there seems to be no way." we joined her and continued signing when Camille was too choked up to finish. Camille has a 4 year old son and maria has 5 children--two sets of twins. Maria wanted to know if we could help her find a sponsor for her daughter to go to school. we told her that we have contacts and will try to help. I hear Camille tell Annie "you keep saying Camille, stop this..I pray for God to give me something else, to give me strength."
My heart breaks at their reality.. the bondage. But I am humbled by their devotion to God, He is their hope. Their faith pales my own.
Camilla is loving this time to escape and worship. She states "it's so peaceful here.. no whoosh , whoosh as the cars scream by and the people!" I tell her that everyone needs peace, rest. I tell her she is welcome any time. We discuss going to where they all live one day and worshiping with them here in bangkok. they are in agreement and very excited!
Camilla, quickly states that yes, we can come visit her, but we should pray now! She then turned to the Swedish woman and said 'would you lead us in prayer?" I loved it--I know she was a bit uncomfortable--but I was letting God stir her heart. She was shocked and said "I don't pray so much".. and then Annie stepped in "let's pray. " Camilla instructed us that in Africa, they get on their knees to pray. So we all did... Camilla cried and prayed "oh daddy, oh daddy, oh daddy oh father.. cleanse me, forgive me.. make me pure." Maria, prayed, but was worried she was losing customers...you could see the turmoil. It was a beautiful time in the Spirit. I reached for their hands and Camilla grabbed mine so tight it almost hurt. but I would never ever let go. I cried out to God "save them lord, make a way, save your children, they love you so... make away!"
we finished and Camilla tells us how much she loves this time and that she loves us. We tell her we love her too and she says that "I want to give out the Bibles and tell people about God, That's my calling, to witness. it's the best thing you can do, to give the gospel." I think to myself, she is witnessing to me-- evangelizing from her identity in Christ, not her identity that sin has tried to brand her with."
We head back into the darkness..but they are carrying the light. And where light enters, darkness can not stay! She has been cleansed! I pray that she will just go home, that she will be so filled with the peace of Christ, that she will hold on to her identity in him and go home to rest.
So, this is my life. my awesome life. my God given, Christ divine-destined life. Most of the time I'm in shock--and I am eternally grateful to be his servant. Thank you Lord for using me and giving me the honor to be with these woman, your precious children. I see how God orchestrated this meeting--they are believers--they know what they are doing is wrong--and God wants us to join them to worship him, to bring reminder that he is still with them and he wants to see them leave this life of bondage. bangkok is filled with evil that wants to rob them of the hope they know, to harden their hearts to God, to lie to them--that God has forgotten them. Evil whispers lies, that they are only worth this life of pain and sacrifice--but God has sent us to keep the light around them!
This is long.. but if you actually made it this far, i thank you for taking the journey with me.
I love you, Grace and Peace
Lynds
On Friday, we had outreach. The evening was incredible. I could never have come close to imagining what God did in just one evening! We went into the Nana Entertainment plaza and entered into the bar. I have been talking with one woman in there for 6 months (except for the 2 months I was at home). Her name is Nok. She told me last Tuesday, that her sister had died. She was unable to go to the funeral because she had no money. Her sister had been taking care of her son. Nok had been working in the bars the past 6 months to get money for her sons education. He had just turned 5 and entered school. Now that her sister had passed, her son is living with her in BKK. It makes me wonder though, who is watching her son while she works? She has no family in BKK.She avoided my question, when I asked. She was still grieving her sisters death. I listened to her tell me how she had cried and cried when she found out. She sat beside me in her string bikini, with tears in her eyes. My mind was swirling with the grief I saw and the defeat she was describing. She had come the last 6 months, been away from her dying sister, her son and for what? She had sold her body to provide for her son and she has made little to no money in 6 months. Her sister is now gone and her parents are still expecting her to provide for them.
Songkran Water Festival is a much anticipated holiday in Thailand. Bangkok almost shuts down during this festival. The shops and vendors are shut down and the streets are filled with people throwing water in a huge water fight! BUT, the foreign men still demand the bars be open, the woman still be able to be bought. SO, the bars stay open. The woman are not allowed to leave. To participate in a festival that means so much to their heritage and culture. Nok told me that she could not go anywhere to celebrate.The bar owners would cut 1000 baht from her salary if she went. This adds sadness to her eyes as well, because most woman would go home to celebrate--she would have seen her sister one last time.
Nok has cried many times while we visit; explaining to me that she "no have customers". She has to take 10 customers a month. The maximum she has been taking is 3. For everyone customer that she does not get a month of the 10 quota, 600 Baht is cut from her salary. Of course, I'm glad that she doesn't have to take so many men. However, my heart breaks because I know that the pressure of that reality for her weighs her down. The invisible chains of debt bondage has kept her here for 6 months already--she has no sign of hope.
Nok pointed to the stage that is front of the door. She says "they are 16. no have school". She's explaining to me that the entire stage of girls are 16 yrs old. They have school break and come to work in the bars to be able to afford their school uniforms! This is SO messed up! In order to go to school, their parents have sent them to work in the bars to make money for their uniforms! Just as I am watching the girls, I see a man in his early thirties walk in. He has a duffle bag on his shoulder; it is obvious that he has a large camera in the bag. He sits on the stool by the stage and looks up the skirts of the young girls. he grabs one girls hand and she crouches beside him. Another server brings him a beer.. he doesn't acknowledge her.. I realize he didn't even order. They know him. They know him well. The girl agrees to come sit beside him when she is done dancing. He finds a seat. She finishes and goes to speak with him. He chugs his beer and takes her upstairs to a "short-time" room. I know this because, the man did not call a mamasaun over to pay the bar fee, the girl did not go change into her 'street clothes" to leave with him... they just left...and no one was alarmed. I watched everyone "turn a blind-eye". I'm sick... I know what's happening and I can do nothing. He's going to tape her. Child pornography. Nok sees my face and asks me if I'm ok. I tell her no--I know what he's doing. My heart feels sick. Nok puts her hand on my knee and squeezes. She's now consoling me... I looked at her and hugged her. She tells me she has to go dance and makes me promise to not leave before she is done.
On Friday, Nok was in a better mood. It saddens me because she is happier because there are more customers in the bar. however, She stayed with me the whole time I was in the bar. She didn't compete for the male customers. She snuggled up to me and talked with Amy and I. She laughed and told us that she was having a good night. She was still sad in her heart though she explained.. we asked her why and she said she missed her sister. We made small talk and then Nok excused herself to the restroom. She came back and asked if Amy and I would pray for her. We had prayed for her in the past, and were delighted to do so again. There is something SO amazing about praying in the bars. Girls watch, and wonder what you're doing. When we were finished the other girls ask Nok what was happening. Nok explains that we bless her and she feels warm. ;)
I long for Nok to leave the bars.. she says she is going to stay until the end of the year and then her parents have requested that she come home and physically take care of them. She says she can't wait , because it means she no longer has to work in the bars.
We leave, feeling already quite overwhelmed with the mercy of God... but God has MUCH MUCH more in store for us that evening.
We walked towards the Grace Hotel, where many trafficked woman hang out. It didn't take us long to run into 2 of the African women. One of them we have chatted with multiple times, the other I had met last Tuesday, but she was quite standoffish. She had just arrived and was not familiar with us. I am sure she wondered if she could trust us. This time, she looked very stoic and deeply sad. Annie sat down beside her and Amy had already begun to talk with her. She didn't look up but forcefully said "I'm ok, but I need a bible!" Most of the African women know we hand out bibles if they would like one and they always want one! Word travels fast that we have them. We often pray with the African women on the streets. They are Christians and pray together before they go out each evening. We all glanced at each other and smiled... Annie tells her that she felt God tell her to bring a bible with her, but she didn't obey. So, if she wanted one tonight, we'd make sure she got one. The African woman, simply states "I really need a Bible." We said alright and arranged to meet her in front of a Hotel not to far from NightLight. Amy noticed that her watch was still on Ugandan time... my heart sank as she changed it to meet us by 10:45. She was holding on to a bit of her home...
We began our trek back to NightLight to bet the Bible. We got two bibles and waited by the hotel for her. She didn't show up. So, we decided that we were not going to let this go easily. Amy and I crossed the street to look for her. There is an arabic community and African community in some of the sub-sois. Annie and the Swedish lady who was been joining us for outreach, stayed back in case she still came to the hotel. The swedish lady is new to bkk and is not a Christian. She felt strongly that she believes in the philosophy of NightLight and wanted to join our outreaches. Annie said it was ok as long as she joined us for our prayer time. She agreed but told Emily that she was afraid it would be hypocritical of her. None of us feel like that would be true, but we do believe that she needs to be a part of our prayer time for covering before we go out. She has been coming for a few weeks now and really enjoys the prayer time--she told me she finds it relaxing. She is comfortable at outreach and has been enjoying it. She is enthusiastic each week! I LOVE the way that God has arranged for her to be with us and is working on her heart too. I watch her soak it all in and come back for more.
So.. Amy and I come up empty handed and returned to annie and the swedish woman. we decided not to give up still--we felt strongly that we were supposed to find her. I ALWAYS go with the feeling.. just keep walking and looking.. God has a plan. We walked back through the arab-african neighborhood. As always, there were many children running barefoot through the streets, begging. one by one, they grab our hands and we walk and play with them for a moment. Amy decided to buy them orange juice, so we stop and chat, play and hug them for just a moment. I look around and have one of those surreal moments again "here I am, thai children in hand, surrounded by Arabic and African people, on the street of bangkok, many languages being spoken around me. I imagine the feet-- the "stories" and lives that have walked where I am, the lives the have crossed at this very point, the joy, the pain.. evil and good that are represented all around. my eyes fill with tears and I praise God for bringing me to this exact point and place in life. i beg him to radiate from me, to increase my wisdom and discernment in this place. I ask God what he wants me to do, what difference do you want me to make, is this it? it's pretty amazing--but I want more! I'm jolted back into reality as we are ready to continue our search for Marissa.
We rounded the corner and ran into 4 African women. We knew two of them. We asked if they new Marissa 'the new girl'. One said she did and would give her the bible. I gave the second one to Rita and she hugged it to her like I had just given her the most precious gift. The other two women wanted one and Annie promised to "bring a truckload" the next time!
We then did run into Marissa a ways down the street. we explained that they had her bible for her. Marissa was with yet, another African woman. She asked for one too. WOW, we did not bring enough. We arranged to meet her next Tuesday with more Bibles.
Continuing on--we ran into two more African woman. Annie knew Camilla and I knew Maria. Camilla has quite the presence and she has her big bottle of beer in hand and in a joking yet with much attitude way, she says "Where's my bible?! You said you'd bring me a Bible. Everyone else has one and I don't. I really need a Bible!" Annie tries to explain that she has not seen her in quite sometime and we ran out tonight. but if she wanted one, she could come with us back to NightLight and we would get her one. She was hesitant to walk that far (her feet already hurt because they have to walk all night in high heels looking for customers). I hear her say to Annie, "Well ok, if it's for God, I guess I can do it." While Camilla is figuring this all out, I am talking with Maria. Maria immediately hugged me and dropped in my arms. She wanted to be held--I'm in awe. She can barely stand. I was holding her up. I hug her with all I have and tell her I love her. She looks at me embarrassed and I ask her what's wrong. She tells me that while I was in America she had gone back to Uganda, but she returned to Bangkok. I tell her how sad that makes me that she had to come back. She tells me that her 5 CHILDREN need money to go to school and that this is her only hope. A woman in Uganda "sponsored" her return. So she "just" has to pay her off and make enough for her children's school this time. I didn't ask her how much she had to pay her "sponsor" but I know in the past, woman have payed off as much as $20,000.
We head back to Nightlight and I over hear Annie say, in Thai "it's ok, they are friends of ours." I look back at her confused. She later explains that a Thai vendor tried to stop her from going with "those women". OH, we must confuse everyone around us! I love it. I look back at the Swedish visitor to see if she's ok... we've already had quite the night! I see Annie laughing with her and asking her if she ever imagined she would be running around the streets of bangkok handing out Bibles! She exclaims, "never!"
We start down the street towards NightLight and I notice that Annie and Camille have stopped behind us. Camille is rushing to finish her beer and she sets against the wall. Later Annie said that Camille had stopped in her tracks and stated "i WILL NOT take beer to church!" She had stopped right before Jai samon church--where we have our morning worship--Camille knew it was a church and she refused to even walk on the grounds with her beer. Annie said it best "how funny that we are strict with ourselves about one sin, while blatantly participating in another."
We finally arrived at NightLight and Camille immediately fell into a chair and breathed a sigh of relief. Maria barely made it into a chair and you could see the worry on her mind. She didn't want to sit down, but she could barely stand. She was worried about not getting a customer that night. Her sister had called and told her more bad news and more needs for money. She asked me for water--I went to get some and Annie went to get the bibles. Camilla asked for 3 bibles total... she then asked for a marker and Amy handed her a pink pen. Camilla began to inscribe in the bibles "to...God Bless you.. These bibles are from NightLight..love Camilla." Camilla could not contain her happiness. She kept exclaiming "thank you, I am so happy! The word of God is so precious. More than anything. More than any amount of money!" She then began to tell us that she had a customer that "did bad things to her, he was a horrible man. evil." She began to tell us how one of her African clients had made her cut herself and him and drink the blood. She cringed at the memory and opened her Bible. She said that she loves Psalms. She reads Psalms 140-145 ALL the time. She said that when this man hurt her--she prayed psalms 140-145 for seven days. God would deal with him.
We continued to talk about Africa, and faith. Annie began to sing an African song--Camille then sang one in her language--a gospel song. She started to sing "God will make a way where there seems to be no way." we joined her and continued signing when Camille was too choked up to finish. Camille has a 4 year old son and maria has 5 children--two sets of twins. Maria wanted to know if we could help her find a sponsor for her daughter to go to school. we told her that we have contacts and will try to help. I hear Camille tell Annie "you keep saying Camille, stop this..I pray for God to give me something else, to give me strength."
My heart breaks at their reality.. the bondage. But I am humbled by their devotion to God, He is their hope. Their faith pales my own.
Camilla is loving this time to escape and worship. She states "it's so peaceful here.. no whoosh , whoosh as the cars scream by and the people!" I tell her that everyone needs peace, rest. I tell her she is welcome any time. We discuss going to where they all live one day and worshiping with them here in bangkok. they are in agreement and very excited!
Camilla, quickly states that yes, we can come visit her, but we should pray now! She then turned to the Swedish woman and said 'would you lead us in prayer?" I loved it--I know she was a bit uncomfortable--but I was letting God stir her heart. She was shocked and said "I don't pray so much".. and then Annie stepped in "let's pray. " Camilla instructed us that in Africa, they get on their knees to pray. So we all did... Camilla cried and prayed "oh daddy, oh daddy, oh daddy oh father.. cleanse me, forgive me.. make me pure." Maria, prayed, but was worried she was losing customers...you could see the turmoil. It was a beautiful time in the Spirit. I reached for their hands and Camilla grabbed mine so tight it almost hurt. but I would never ever let go. I cried out to God "save them lord, make a way, save your children, they love you so... make away!"
we finished and Camilla tells us how much she loves this time and that she loves us. We tell her we love her too and she says that "I want to give out the Bibles and tell people about God, That's my calling, to witness. it's the best thing you can do, to give the gospel." I think to myself, she is witnessing to me-- evangelizing from her identity in Christ, not her identity that sin has tried to brand her with."
We head back into the darkness..but they are carrying the light. And where light enters, darkness can not stay! She has been cleansed! I pray that she will just go home, that she will be so filled with the peace of Christ, that she will hold on to her identity in him and go home to rest.
So, this is my life. my awesome life. my God given, Christ divine-destined life. Most of the time I'm in shock--and I am eternally grateful to be his servant. Thank you Lord for using me and giving me the honor to be with these woman, your precious children. I see how God orchestrated this meeting--they are believers--they know what they are doing is wrong--and God wants us to join them to worship him, to bring reminder that he is still with them and he wants to see them leave this life of bondage. bangkok is filled with evil that wants to rob them of the hope they know, to harden their hearts to God, to lie to them--that God has forgotten them. Evil whispers lies, that they are only worth this life of pain and sacrifice--but God has sent us to keep the light around them!
This is long.. but if you actually made it this far, i thank you for taking the journey with me.
I love you, Grace and Peace
Lynds
Thursday, April 23, 2009
mighty to save
Dearest friends and family,
God is doing so much... I have much to write and WILL when I am more coherent than I am now! ;)
I've copied and pasted a couple notes that Annie wrote about JAR--a new beautiful woman who now works at NL. This all happened in the last 48 hrs! GOD HAS SAVED HER!
(First post--just 14yrs after meeting Jar)
"Last night's outreach was sad. I met a young woman 25 yrs, named Jar. I could tell she was brand new. They called her to dance but she didn't know what to do. She was very uncomfortable. I called her over and found out it was her first day and she was scared. She said she had worked at a factory putting hardrives together but a friend told her she could make a lot of money fast at the bar. Her mother, 45 yrs. is in her last stage of terminal breast cancer. The doctor has given her two weeks to live. Jar has come to work at the bar to pay for the hospital bill and for chemotherapy. I asked her why they were doing chemotherapy if her mom had two weeks. She got teary and said that her mother is the only person she has left and she wants to do all she can. I held her and prayed for her. She held back the tears as best she could. Her mother has lost all her hair and doesn't talk with her much anymore because she is not doing well. I told Jar about NL and she was excited and hopeful. She thinks she will work two weeks and see what happens with her mom and then call me. The only way for her to make a lot of money in two weeks is through tips from customers. That's not likely with more girls working and fewer customers around and her being so new and uncomfortable.
I'm praying for a miracle for her mom."
(second post-Jar's mom died only about 5 hrs after God set up the divine meeting with Annie. Jar called a little over 18hrs after meeting Annie.)
"Jar called me this afternoon. Her mother died last night. She felt all alone and wanted to see me. I met her and brought her to NightLight. She said she got back to the hospital at 2am after work. She made no tips and just couldn't make the effort to talk or go with men. She only had the money I gave her (instead of buying a drink) to get her home. She got to the hospital and the doctor said her mother had died at 1:30am. On her way home she bought a bottle of medicine thinking she would die and follow her mother. A voice told her not to do it and she decided to sleep a bit first. She dreamt of me and decided she would call me. First she had to take her mother's body to the temple for cremation. She couldn't afford to do any ceremonies and there are no relatives to care or help. She finished at 3 and called me. She really doesn't want to work at the bar.
Jar told me she thinks her life has no value or why would her father abandon her? I shared with her how God arranged our meeting last night and how much He loves her. She said she doesn't know anything about God but she had read about Jesus dying on the cross. I explained to her that He did it because she is that valuable to Him. I told her that she won't be alone. She will have family and community here at NightLight. She went home tonight with the promise that she is not suicidal but has hope. Tomorrow morning she has to go back to the temple then she will start work at NightLight. I gave her a hug and told her she is a sister already and to call me if she needs encouragement tonight.
I praise God that he set up that divine appointment, that he spared her life and brought her to us. Its really amazing to think about. I'm so sad for her loss. At the same time if her mother had lived another two weeks she would have stayed at the bar hoping and sacrificing in vain. Her mother died her first night there after she met us and had an option with hope. wow! Please pray for her though. I'm hoping she will move to the shelter and not stay alone in the apartment once she has some time to say goodbye."
GOD IS SO AMAZING! No schemes of the Devil, no plans of the enemy, no tragedy too great, no hopelessness too deep for the GLORY OF GOD!
She was saved from taking a customer in the bar, possible abuse/trauma, suicide, dealing with death alone, eviction from her apartment, and no possibility of income! GOD IS MERCIFUL AND HEARS EVERY ONE OF HIS CHILDREN CRY OUT TO HIM AND HE IS MIGHTY TO SAVE!!!!!!!
I will write more about myself later, it just doesn't seem appropriate now ;) just know I am wonderful and God has taken me on a huge journey of revelation. I am excited to share with you. Please pray for my up coming journey to pattaya--I'll be attending a Glory school and doing prophetic evangelism on the streets and redlight district there! Pray for our safety, that God's Glory would be so heavy, his anointing would fall, lives would be saved and rival began!
love you all
Lynds
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
AngelWitch
she's only 15
a woman's curves she has yet to possess
her pink heart earrings dangle
her pink watch reveals she's still a girl
her smile is tender
there is still light in her eyes
she smiles our way
desperately trying to be sexy
her arms and legs don't quite work together
she's on stage during an awkward stage
the chains she wears try to mask her innocence
the bar owners can not decide which fantasy to sell
there is a run in her black knee highs
her high healed boots are too big
she wears no make-up
her hair has not been curled
she daydreams and forgets where she is
alarmed, she looks around to see if anyone is watching
embarrassed, she catches my gaze
I smile at her, a smile that says "it's ok, I'm glad you had a momentary escape"
her songs are over, for the moment
she steps of the stage
she walks over to a mamasaun
she explains her trouble and pouts
she's only 15
a woman's curves she has yet to possess
Men have begun to pour in
drunkenness has approached
middle aged men with ponytails take a seat by the stage
identity crisis, grasping at days gone by
3 guys in their twenties try to appear confident and cool
they huddle together, in a booth next to me, and act like they "do this all the time"
2 business men walk in with a Thai girl they've already bought
She leads them to the top row and gives them a preview
An overweight man in his thirties, walks in with a "cowboy" hat he purchased on the street
His need for attention is apparent
a boy, just 18, with braces, a backpack and a school uniform stumbles in
he's high and searching for a release before heading home
A very short man, with bottle cap glasses, struggles to pull himself up into the booth
He lacks self-esteem and has come to pay for attention
Peppered hair, clean cut, distinguished-looking glasses and a wedding ring
no wife in sight, he calls a girl over, he barely says hello and his hands begin to wander
The music turns darker and lyrics-- "we are all zombies"-- repeat
the gyrating increases and so does the lust of men
the spiritual oppression is thick
my head feels like it is in a vice and someone is pushing my shoulders down with both hands
the witches and cauldrons of fire hanging from the ceiling are fake,
but the shrines of idols above the bar, incense burned, rituals performed, and lives being sacrificed are very real
a woman's curves she has yet to possess
her pink heart earrings dangle
her pink watch reveals she's still a girl
her smile is tender
there is still light in her eyes
she smiles our way
desperately trying to be sexy
her arms and legs don't quite work together
she's on stage during an awkward stage
the chains she wears try to mask her innocence
the bar owners can not decide which fantasy to sell
there is a run in her black knee highs
her high healed boots are too big
she wears no make-up
her hair has not been curled
she daydreams and forgets where she is
alarmed, she looks around to see if anyone is watching
embarrassed, she catches my gaze
I smile at her, a smile that says "it's ok, I'm glad you had a momentary escape"
her songs are over, for the moment
she steps of the stage
she walks over to a mamasaun
she explains her trouble and pouts
she's only 15
a woman's curves she has yet to possess
Men have begun to pour in
drunkenness has approached
middle aged men with ponytails take a seat by the stage
identity crisis, grasping at days gone by
3 guys in their twenties try to appear confident and cool
they huddle together, in a booth next to me, and act like they "do this all the time"
2 business men walk in with a Thai girl they've already bought
She leads them to the top row and gives them a preview
An overweight man in his thirties, walks in with a "cowboy" hat he purchased on the street
His need for attention is apparent
a boy, just 18, with braces, a backpack and a school uniform stumbles in
he's high and searching for a release before heading home
A very short man, with bottle cap glasses, struggles to pull himself up into the booth
He lacks self-esteem and has come to pay for attention
Peppered hair, clean cut, distinguished-looking glasses and a wedding ring
no wife in sight, he calls a girl over, he barely says hello and his hands begin to wander
The music turns darker and lyrics-- "we are all zombies"-- repeat
the gyrating increases and so does the lust of men
the spiritual oppression is thick
my head feels like it is in a vice and someone is pushing my shoulders down with both hands
the witches and cauldrons of fire hanging from the ceiling are fake,
but the shrines of idols above the bar, incense burned, rituals performed, and lives being sacrificed are very real
Thursday, March 26, 2009
sittin in tokyo
hi everyone,
the last 24 hours have been so blessed. my last evening in minneapolis was spent with a dear friend, Stacy and her small group; i had to again marvel at how good God is to me. i had no idea that i would be able to share what i'm doing in thailand with her small group and be covered in prayer before i left. they were all extremely encouraging and i left with a sense of peace. stace took good care of me and got me off to the airport. check in was beyond easy. i definitely prayed that angels would lift my overweight bags when they were on the scale and that God would give me grace. guess what, my bags registered under weight!! my flights have been spectacular, relaxing and i'm definitely spoiled. asians are so polite---you will never ever find airport or flight staff that are more patient, attentive and helpful. never annoyed and always have a solution. my personal monitor had a channel that was a camera on the outside of my plane! I could watch everything that was happening in front of and below the plane! I marveled at the snow in alaska and got lost in the enchantment of the sea. when nearing Japan, I saw huge boats in the middle of miles and miles of sea, birds floating, crashing waves and reef beneath the surface. i couldn't help but tear up at the beauty of God's creation and thank him for my life. my thoughts drifted to how i was going to be able to remember all of this to share with my kids one day and wondering if they would ever believe what their mom did once upon a time. my thoughts also drifted to how creative and magnificent God is and how humbled i am to see his creations. i thought of how i can not conceptualize all of the life that is happening around me. how each living thing has it's story, its creation, it's existance and the how vast the beauty of the world is. we all run around, in a hurry, worried about our economy and God has created this beautiful world that perfectly exists. a world that we take for granted. a world that we don't even bother to know. we may never understand it all----but i was moved to tears at the thought of the honor it is, to see even a glimpse of it's wonder.
i am looking around at the nationalities represented in this one room in Tokyo--at least 20. not a person looks the same. each has their story. a destiny. each created by God. each deserves perfect love. and each trying to find it and live a life of purpose or success. i wonder--how many know jesus. his perfect love and success in his will. how many have never even heard of their creator. how many in this room have had their innocence stolen. how many have stolen innocence. i can hear a conversation of a middle-aged man and a thirty-something man (in an obvious identity crisis), talk about prostitutes in Thailand. one mentions "atleast I know i don't have HIV. other stds can be dealt with." they are both on their way to thailand--on my flight.
this morning--still in minneapolis--i stopped at the starbucks in the airport. in front of me, a pilot. he was flirting with the young boy behind the counter. the boy was very feminine and batted his eyes at the pilot. the pilot responded with his own display of attraction to the boy. the pilot asked the boy when his break would be. they discussed how they could make their breaks coincide and agreed to meet. in minutes the young boy had arranged his break and ran around the corner to sit with the pilot. i burst into tears. i couldn't help it. i just watched sexual immorality at it's "best." i just watched a professional man--who could very well be the pilot of my plane--exploit a young man. i witnessed it all. WHY?! WHY has God allowed me to see this and in the first half hour of my next chapter of life. i composed myself and began to laugh when the girl behind the counter handed my my Venti ICED latte with no ice--because she thought that is what i had said--oh starbucks. i went off to find my terminal and prayed as i walked. remembering, i was in the number one international airport in the US for human trafficking--oh God, help me. There has been much much blessing and joy in this day as well. Evil and God coexist always--what a display of that fact, this day has been.
I'm ecstatic and nervous to return to bangkok. it would have been tempting to stay in the comforts of Sioux Falls and my family. but, i know God has called me and I am anticipating what he is going to do in these next few months. i dream of seeing the entire world. whatever is possible in my years on this earth--i want to see it. but not just see it, but bring the Holy Spirit to the darkest places and join with those who have pioneered so much. I feel the Holy Spirit even now as I type, I'm resting in the thoughts of how great God's dreams for me must be. I'm humbled and in awe of how big his dreams for me are. And--I am no longer going to say that I can't wait to see them come--I'm in them. I'm here, smack dab in them. and I plan to never leave. i'm going to do my best to never doubt that God will provide. i'm living kingdom and darn honored to do so.
i'm in japan. are you kidding me? japan. yes--this little iowa/south dakota, white girl, with platinum hair is in japan and on her way to bangkok! to LIVE in a redlight district. HAHAHAHA GOD IS SO SO FLIPPIN COOL!
I love you all. miss you already. thank you for loving me. please keep me in your prayers.
you are in my thoughts, always.
blessings
Grace and Peace
Lynds
the last 24 hours have been so blessed. my last evening in minneapolis was spent with a dear friend, Stacy and her small group; i had to again marvel at how good God is to me. i had no idea that i would be able to share what i'm doing in thailand with her small group and be covered in prayer before i left. they were all extremely encouraging and i left with a sense of peace. stace took good care of me and got me off to the airport. check in was beyond easy. i definitely prayed that angels would lift my overweight bags when they were on the scale and that God would give me grace. guess what, my bags registered under weight!! my flights have been spectacular, relaxing and i'm definitely spoiled. asians are so polite---you will never ever find airport or flight staff that are more patient, attentive and helpful. never annoyed and always have a solution. my personal monitor had a channel that was a camera on the outside of my plane! I could watch everything that was happening in front of and below the plane! I marveled at the snow in alaska and got lost in the enchantment of the sea. when nearing Japan, I saw huge boats in the middle of miles and miles of sea, birds floating, crashing waves and reef beneath the surface. i couldn't help but tear up at the beauty of God's creation and thank him for my life. my thoughts drifted to how i was going to be able to remember all of this to share with my kids one day and wondering if they would ever believe what their mom did once upon a time. my thoughts also drifted to how creative and magnificent God is and how humbled i am to see his creations. i thought of how i can not conceptualize all of the life that is happening around me. how each living thing has it's story, its creation, it's existance and the how vast the beauty of the world is. we all run around, in a hurry, worried about our economy and God has created this beautiful world that perfectly exists. a world that we take for granted. a world that we don't even bother to know. we may never understand it all----but i was moved to tears at the thought of the honor it is, to see even a glimpse of it's wonder.
i am looking around at the nationalities represented in this one room in Tokyo--at least 20. not a person looks the same. each has their story. a destiny. each created by God. each deserves perfect love. and each trying to find it and live a life of purpose or success. i wonder--how many know jesus. his perfect love and success in his will. how many have never even heard of their creator. how many in this room have had their innocence stolen. how many have stolen innocence. i can hear a conversation of a middle-aged man and a thirty-something man (in an obvious identity crisis), talk about prostitutes in Thailand. one mentions "atleast I know i don't have HIV. other stds can be dealt with." they are both on their way to thailand--on my flight.
this morning--still in minneapolis--i stopped at the starbucks in the airport. in front of me, a pilot. he was flirting with the young boy behind the counter. the boy was very feminine and batted his eyes at the pilot. the pilot responded with his own display of attraction to the boy. the pilot asked the boy when his break would be. they discussed how they could make their breaks coincide and agreed to meet. in minutes the young boy had arranged his break and ran around the corner to sit with the pilot. i burst into tears. i couldn't help it. i just watched sexual immorality at it's "best." i just watched a professional man--who could very well be the pilot of my plane--exploit a young man. i witnessed it all. WHY?! WHY has God allowed me to see this and in the first half hour of my next chapter of life. i composed myself and began to laugh when the girl behind the counter handed my my Venti ICED latte with no ice--because she thought that is what i had said--oh starbucks. i went off to find my terminal and prayed as i walked. remembering, i was in the number one international airport in the US for human trafficking--oh God, help me. There has been much much blessing and joy in this day as well. Evil and God coexist always--what a display of that fact, this day has been.
I'm ecstatic and nervous to return to bangkok. it would have been tempting to stay in the comforts of Sioux Falls and my family. but, i know God has called me and I am anticipating what he is going to do in these next few months. i dream of seeing the entire world. whatever is possible in my years on this earth--i want to see it. but not just see it, but bring the Holy Spirit to the darkest places and join with those who have pioneered so much. I feel the Holy Spirit even now as I type, I'm resting in the thoughts of how great God's dreams for me must be. I'm humbled and in awe of how big his dreams for me are. And--I am no longer going to say that I can't wait to see them come--I'm in them. I'm here, smack dab in them. and I plan to never leave. i'm going to do my best to never doubt that God will provide. i'm living kingdom and darn honored to do so.
i'm in japan. are you kidding me? japan. yes--this little iowa/south dakota, white girl, with platinum hair is in japan and on her way to bangkok! to LIVE in a redlight district. HAHAHAHA GOD IS SO SO FLIPPIN COOL!
I love you all. miss you already. thank you for loving me. please keep me in your prayers.
you are in my thoughts, always.
blessings
Grace and Peace
Lynds
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